Monday, June 25, 2012

Hello World

Dearest Legions of Nameless, Existenceless Fans:

How have you been?  How's life?  What unknowable dimensions have you been occupying lately?  I'm so jealous of your journeys through oblivion, it must be so exciting.

Wave after wave of complex thoughts...it's like I can see the limitations of my own sight, hear the boundaries of my ability to hear.  I realize that I'm imperfect, deeply flawed.  But, objectively, what is a flaw?  I suppose that, ultimately, a flaw is simply a description of some anomalous quality.  A flaw in a pearl, if I understand correctly, is a space where the surface of the pearl is bumped, cracked, or otherwise deviant from what should be "spheriness"....sphericality?

I guess mathematics is the foundation of perfection.  Straight lines, symmetry, perfect circles.  These platonic ideas don't occur "in nature" (although that is debatable, if one considers humans to be natural creatures and human creations to be our natural by-products).  So perhaps the more one can align one's actions/thoughts with mathematical qualities, the less flawed one will be....can that possibly make sense?  Thought and behavior are complicated.  I need to study the geometry of the brain, perhaps.

Why do we want to share so badly?  Why does the subconscious clamor for recognition and attention unceasingly?  It must be a manifestation of our perpetual existential angst.  We can't handle our mortality and limitation.  Having others share our thoughts and feelings is a temporary reprieve from our isolation.

What does it mean to "deceive oneself"?  Decisions can be made, and the consequences of those decisions can be gauged...part of you may want to do one thing, and another part of you wants another thing.  There is no indivisible self, so how can there be self-deception?  Perhaps thinking that there is a single self is the only kind of self-deception that there really is.  Your "selfness" is a lie.  "Selflessness" is truth.
  

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